On The Brink....

i havent updated that much lately, well its time...

china was awesome, i had alot of fun there, for many reasons...one, because i was all the way across the world in a foreign country, that will never happen again....two, i got to play in front of many chinese people, and they supposedly really liked us...lol they wanted the jazz band to play at a bar one night....three, i met someone, but i screwed it up by going to far to fast...i felt like shit the rest of the trip because of what i did....anyways, i wont mention her name, but she is an awesome person...

we then got back from china, and that week after i got back, my whole family on my mom's side got together..that was awesome, and also i had my 18th birthday on july 7th, so thats cool, the day kinda sucked, but it didnt even feel like my birthday, so it was all cool by the end of the night

then NINEVEH had a show on July 14th at oakcrest with MOORLAND AND FENN. then they played basketball together, so that was fun...OH, and fatty was there, so it was awesome seeing him again...i missed him, hes an awesome guy....and then NINEVEH has another show on JULY 29TH with JDEF and ALL THE RIGHT TURNS <- (NEW BAND) lol....

i also played my first game of airsoft last week too...it was fun, but we played at night, so you couldnt see anything, and it was hot, so our glasses were fogging up all the time...i had fun though




now...to the part where i bitch about my life again...lol...if you dont want to read about it, just get off the page and go listen to NINEVEH's Demo and get ready for JULY 29th...

this week has been kinda iffy, i sat on my couch for 2 1/2 days straight and i did a lot of thinking...im one lonely and lazy ass person...but, i know my friends have jobs and some have girlfriends, and there always busy, but no one calls me, or what i feel like, doesn't want to hang out with me, its probably just me, but i feel like i have no friends...i know some people, but the only person i hang out with is TIMMY, and dont get me wrong, TIMMY IS ONE AWESOME PERSON...but i would like to go out and do stuff, have fun with groups of people, go places, have awesome times around bon fires, or whatever...i just feel really lonely in the friend department..im not criticizing anyone, im just saying that im not a very out going guy, and i dont talk out a lot....now, im also lonely in the GF department...i dont know whats up with me, but i see people with the GF's and i get really jealous and want to be with someone, but lately, ive just not been into anybody, im not attracted to any girl...i just feel really crummy...im 18 and i have had one GF and that lasted 10 days and i only saw her for 3 hours....again, i just wish i was less shy and could talk a lot more... :( and then also i realized that im really lazy, i really need a job and start making money and a living...ive just been really picky about places...ive applied to places before, but i never get a call or they dont want me, and everytime i try to apply, tim makes fun of me and says i cant get a job because i have semi long hair and a beard..fuck that, ive seen people with longer hair and beards before...im just not going to not care anymore, and just apply to places like theres no tomorrow!!!!

i just need to get out there, be an out going person, but not the kind thats rude and makes everyone pissed off and just have a good time with life!!!

by the way, i just finished my book ANGELS AND DEMONS by DAN BROWN....such a good book!!!...i recommend it everyone...a must read...

well, im done here, so im going to comment on everybodys LJ's and MYSPACE's


BAUER....OUT